A real hello

That last post was terrible! I play acoustic music and really enjoy it??!! WTF

It was in fact a copy and paste of the last blog entry from my bands myspace page. www.myspace.com/3ringcircus

Whilst I meant every word, its a slightly delicate situation as I don't really want my band mates reading it. Well Russell really as I don't think he'd like my cander. He doesn't like to upset other bands/musicians as he thinks it'll come back to haunt us.

Me, I've got no such worries. Mainly because I prefer to be honest and partly because I sometimes don't engage my brain before I speak. Hence I once slagged off a soundman from the stage, which I was right to do, but ended up looking like a prat for a bit. Although on the other hand, it was quite funny, mocking him in a slightly patronising way.

So I've set up my own blog so I can type what I want without fear of anyone reading it who shouldn't. Cos lets be honest, you would have to search the net pretty hard to find this and even know about 3 ring circus. So here I can write what I want and as much as I want. Twitter is good but thats too public. Plus you can't write enough.

I love playing music, but it causes alot of stress. I stress about shows, about getting people to gigs, about sharing kit, about getting songs to sound right. Bloody hell I even worry about whether I should change strings! I don't worry about knowing we are a good, no great band. I still dream of making it and getting somewhere with it. I still have a naive belief that one day, our song writing ability and skill, will get us recognition. It probably won't as we don't lick arses and don't try and sound like whats trendy. We play from the heart, which is not cool.

I hate my job, even though I am self employed and aledgedly own my business. But its mind numbing and I want to get out of it to be a musician, but that still feels like its as far away from being reality as it was when 3 rc started 8 years ago. In some ways it definitly feels further away than it was at the start. I hold our old drummer responsible for some of that as his attitude sucked the enjoyment out of the band for me for the last few years. Thats another story. I also blame the idiot who ran the first label we were signed to who was a complete lier and did nothing to promote our first album. That, again, is another story that I may go into in the furture.

So hello!! If you have stumbled accross these rantings by the slimest of chances, don't take alot of it seriously. I'll tell you when its important.

I'll sign off for now by leaving you with these words:

"sing it out, better loud than too late"

S