Any light at end of tunnel.

Struggling at the moment.

Lots to be happy about, but you know me, always look on the dark side.

A new year has not made much difference, despite me trying to be more positive. I'm just generally cheesed off that the music side of things has ground to a halt a bit. My band are trying to record a new record at the moment and I'm working on it. I'm just not sure what we are going to do with it once its done. No one will care, even if its as good as Revolver!

I'm starting to have the feeling that the ship has sailed, as far as a musical career is concerned. How long should you keep banging your head against a brick wall? I dont want to end up being one of those saddos in their 50's still playing around crappy pubs. And its not as if we're being offered stacks of gigs. The last one was at a lovely venue that we've really enjoyed playiong at before. But this time, it was noisey and ours appears to be the only show that the venue havent put pictures of, on their website. Yet another example of the lack of respect we face. I just dont get it, I really dont.

I am going to go down to working 3 days a week soon, so I'm hoping in vain that will bring a little light and let me work on my music and ride my bike a bit more. On that latter subject, I am getting a new bike this coming weekend, a new Cotic. Lets hope I get time to ride it.

I've been worrying all the time about getting the dreaded sick bug too. What a knob.

And since the week before Christmas, my back has been driving me mad. So today, I have been to the Osteopaths and I'm hoping it helps. The guy also does NLP and he seems confident that he can help me psycologically! He started asking me loads of questions which made me realise how unhelpful some people close to me, have been threoughout my growing up. Its left me feeling a bit odd today if I'm honest and its a bit strange opeing up to a complete stranger. But if it helps.....